Definitely, Maybe......Definitely, Not

Last night, I watched a movie called Definitely, Maybe. It was about a little girl who's parents are going through a divorce. She lives with her dad and asks him how he met his mother.So he finally agrees to tell her the story, but he changes the names because he wants her to figure out which woman was her mother (he loved several women).

What made me the most angry, was that the women basically threw themselves at him. They were desperate to confess their loves to him. What happen to old fashioned wooing of a woman's heart? What happen to all the mystery involved in getting to know someone slowly. Why are people dying to fall in love? What happen to relational intimacy?

I know for a fact that I don't want to have a string of boyfriends before I meet that special someone. Imagine the emotional baggage that you were carry into that ultimate relationship. Your mind would constantly be filled with "what ifs". Imagine the feeling of looking at your spouse and thinking," What if I had married my first boyfriend?" "Would I be happier?" Doubt and old memories would be like that friend who constantly has to tell you the last gossip. There is another way to live. What if we chose to marry the best man God put in our path? Not necessarily the guy that gave us the most passionate feelings , but the guy who is the most passionate for God?

Further more, what happen to men that actually cherish woman? I want someone who will protect my purity and inspire me to be a better person. Someone who will speak truth into my life and lift me up. Someone who will stand up for me. Someone who is passionate about changing the world.

I'm tired of guys that are just passive and don't care about anything. Guys that don't lead or speak into a woman's life. I must admit I miss my brothers from the Honor Academy so much. They showed me exactly how a godly man should treat a young woman. My brother Jon probably showed me the best how a man should treat a woman. He could come up to me and ask me truly how I was feeling and doing. There was no flirting or goofing around. Words of encouragement were spoken when they were needed.

The Saviour King (continued...)

"Nothing compares to what you have done for me" I don't know how many times God has saved my life. All of this has just shown me his love and devotion to me. I'm just so amazed how the God of the universe would care so much for me. Its absolutely beautiful. "And nothing can separate us...now or ever." A romance that will never be broken. Something no other man can give me. He is my soul mate. He completes me.
My spirit thirsts for him and his righteousness. I could not live without Him or His love. I've even noticed that when I keep listening to secular love songs, my spirit says,"No, the savior king is your lover." And I won't feel better until I begin to sing to Him. I'm convinced he sings back to us. He sings of His love for us, and the joy he has for having created us. I have found Him, the One I was created for. The One who will never leave me nor forsake me. I am beginning to love myself for who I am, because I am created in His image and He loves me.

credits: (michael gungor|prodigal)

The Saviour King

"In my minds eye I can see your face
Love pours down in a shower of grace
Life is a gift that you choose to give
I believe we eternally live
Faith is the evidence of things unseen
People tell me that your just a dream
But they don't know you the way I do
You're the one I live to pursue"
(dc talk|minds eye)

That is one of my favorite songs of all time. I have been looking back at all the things that have happen this year, and all the places I have been, physically and spiritually. All I can compare it to is a continuous wave. Even in my darkest moments, I know he was there. The realization has brought me to tears. Knowing that he has placed books, people, friends, music, hobbies and Himself in my direct line of vision to help restore me, has reassured me that he is always there. He never fails. He is the only constant in my life. Even when I couldn't talk to Him, because I was so empty, He found a way to speak to me. He found a way to break through the walls and rescue his princess like a knight in shinning armour.

Heaven

His voice resonates with love and gentleness, as he speaks of the mysteries of the universe. I can't do anything but stand in awe of his beauty. This is all I have waited for. No earthly husband or lover in the past could compare to Him. As I lay on the grass, looking up at him, nothing can distract me from that moment. He glides his hands through the air as he reveals the mysteries of the universe, and I am taken with his humility. His majesty is only know by the outward appearance.

This is the only love I want to know.